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June 24, 2010 - 1:20:23 am RelationshipsDV: I don't know if this message is even going to get posted, but I don't know how to tell you what I need to tell you. Not to your face. I can't. I'm too ashamed. I love you. At least I think I do, which is weird, because I never thought I would love someone like you. We met under less than ideal circumstances--you were doing your job, and I didn't want to distract you from doing your job (much as I thought about it). And I wish I could just tell you how I feel. You are single--like me--and you have similar interests to mine. But... you live so far away... and you're five years younger than me. Even if you returned my affections, meeting would be difficult, and even if we could meet, you would eventually get tired of me. My last lover did, and wasn't very graceful about telling me so. That was incredibly discouraging. I want so much to tell you that I love you, DV, and I want to fuck your brains out, if only once. But I'm getting weaker, and I just don't know if I have the energy for these games anymore... I don't really need sex. I don't need a full-time commitment, even if parts of the idea sound nice under ideal circumstances. More than anything, I just want someone to care about me and whom I can care about.
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